This is NOT what we planned

When Dylan and I set off on our self proclaimed Freedam Tour we had this vision in mind that included remote camping, seeing beautiful places, and hammering out some writing and photography along the way.

So far, we've been in four mechanic shops, stayed at five Pilot Travel Stations, stayed one night in a hotel, well seven nights actually, and will be staying four nights with my grandparents. While we've had fun in between the stressful moments- this is definitely not what we planned.

When we left New York for full time RVing we expected to find beautiful places to camp along the way, we didn't know how sparse boondocking places are along the east coast. We've been on the road for 17 days now and we've lived in our RV for a total of 5 of them (most of them in parking lots).

It just seems like nothing has been in our favor since we left Myrtle beach on the 7th of January. We had our antifreeze boil over, booked a not-so-great campground, took a route way out of the way, changed our plans, had the antifreeze boil over again, got kicked out of a parking lot we thought we could spend the night in, had the RV die on the interstate, and had the RV not start in the parking lot at my grandparent's RV park.

We're not complaining, we're healthy and agree things could've so much worse but we also know what we expected for this trip and this is NOT what we planned.

It's super important to us that we stay united as a team through all of these roadblocks. While, yes, the RV not working is more than frustrating, our relationship is the most important part of this whole life. Even through the stressful times we need to remember that we're in this together, and we've done that and will continue to do that.

After the RV died on the highway we had to stay a night at a Holiday Inn in St. Augustine, FL. We had a long talk about what on earth we were going to do. We were frustrated, angry, sad, and frankly, we were a little lost.

We left New York with this vision about what life was going to be like and what our experiences would be and when real life wasn't turning out like the dream we got a tad distraught. We left our whole lives behind- a house, a business, our jobs, our families, our security, all for a trip that had left us in gas station parking lots without showers. What were we thinking!

We sat in the hot tub at the Holiday Inn and wallowed in our sorrows trying to predict what our next move would be. Do we go home? Do we keep going? Do we just stayed here? Do we fix it? What's even wrong with it? How much will it cost? Why'd we do this? The questions were endless.

We cried, we laughed, and we were grateful for AAA.

In those moments we connected. We spoke of all our fears, all our hopes, and all our love. We spoke in 'what ifs' and 'I hope nots'. These moments are some of the most important things to us. We felt all our emotions fully and purely without any filters. Were we angry? Sure. But we still had each other and that is more important than anything could ever be.

As I write this, we're waiting for the RV to be repaired (again). We're getting two new fuel pumps that will hopefully solve all the issues we've been having (please send good vibes our way).

We're still sitting here, wondering what's next, and wondering if our expectations are anywhere close to what we will actually live. We went into this knowing that RV life would be a challenge, but we at least wanted it all to be on our terms, but, the funny part about life is that it's not typically on your own terms.

We are grateful for my grandparents allowing us to stay with them, we are grateful to have broken down near family, we are grateful to have money in the bank, and most importantly, we are grateful to have each other through this craziness that is life.